J.....sudly those memory is remind me....

life issit boredom like now?
meaningless...
everyday the same things im doing...
suck...


fine...


when the begin i try to trust ppl,i dy hurt by nothing
tat y i not willing to trust...
include the best frenz...

frenz is for sell out?
i heard this kinda shit things by anyone since im a kids...
i dun believe it...
now,im totally realise it ...
even the lover oso...

love?
in my life seem never appear except my family...
quite tired with life...
sometimes tot it is the right one, but actually not...
evy frenz ask me the same quetion, y i change target so fast...
issit is i change?
i pain inside nobody noe...
i like her since tat time,
but, i noe she never love me n quite disappointed with me...since i hurt myself n write suck things at the blog...
8ct i write tat cuz i feel she`re so fake...
but i noe im wrg dy...when she`re scolded im suck...
i knw she totally hate me...
i duno tat T got wat so attract u...
she do so many things to hurt u,y u still love her deeply?
i duno wat happen on u now,maybe u wan to gv up such relation, but i noe u still love her...
u make eurself busy busy n busy...
i noe it....
i noe sometimes tat u feel lone...
i cant do anythins....
cuz , im reli nth for u anymore....i noe u just wish she r beside u forever...
i tot i can gv up...but,i duno wat im thking...
recently i miss those memory ...is sweet but is hurt....
u sure will thk im talking bull shit now...
wat im say u will thk is suck things....
n u will feel im fake...
but, i hav to explain...
i still the 白痴milo....
n u always is the bing gan...
n evythings dy wont happen on us anymore...
even we meet, maybe the situation will be silent again........



J......